So

So I came here to write about something and probably I'm going to write about something entirely different. 

Food in my stomach is starting to take its toll, I knew it was inside a but couldn't help but to continue doing it, I don't feel myself right now I feel kinda dizzy, I'm not this feeling for too long and honestly it doesn't feel right, even though it's familiar I think I don't want this in my life anymore, so making the choices to go where I'm supposed to go isn't enough if I don't respect those choices, I mean, I do know my demons and saying that they come to visit me every now and then it wouldn't be fair to myself, why? Because it's not like date come and I let them in, somehow I invited them, I provided the necessary environment for them to arrive, or at least this is my current feeling or this is what I think of it now. 

I know it's wrong, but somehow it feels right, so I might have to ignore it this time? Because I don't want this burden on top of me, and it only thought that comes to my head is that I don't want to look like a fool in the upcoming years? Or months or whatever and that's basically it I know that's basically it. 

So what to do is in my hands I know, and I don't want to feel like this again. 

So respecting the choices probably is going to be the way to go and yeah my blood pressure seems normal so that's not it. 

My body against my mind. 

It's what I want to when I feel in a certain way. 

And probably I will have to come up and confront this. 

Not in the way I usually do things but in a very different way maybe just by accepting what the life is telling me and giving me and take advantage of it because it's right there I just have to take it. 

So I have to be open and not to fear the results because to be honest I don't fear the results just don't want this burden.

-JG